Ch28 Life2
Months later
After an arduous night of labor Siren Carter was born.
I lay in the hospital bed exhausted but in awe of the beautiful baby I held in my arms. His dark hair was the same color as his father. Sin.
“He looks like a mini version of you,” I murmured watching his tiny fingers wrap around my finger. He had all is fingers and toes. His little features a carbon copy of his handsome father. My chest was filled with so much emotion.
Sin kissed my forehead gently. “He is beautiful.” His voice was filled with emotion.
I tilted my face as he kissed me gently.
“I’m so happy,” I breathed. “I have everything I ever wanted.”
“Me too.”
We were a family. The three of us.
Sin took our son and held him. There was nothing more breath taking than watching the two most important men in my life bond for the first time. I held my breath as I experienced the most touching moment and watched silently.
The moment I held Siren I had felt so much love for someone I had never met before. It took my breath away. The intensity of it took me by surprise. I finally understood the love a parent felt for a child.
I would risk everything to protect him. Everything.
With that same love, the fear set in that something could harm him. I had experienced enough of my own pain to know that it might not be possible no matter how hard I tried. I sighed, feeling emotional and tired.
“What are you thinking?” Sin asked as he held our son against his chest protectively.
I swallowed. “I’m scared we won’t be able to keep him safe.”
Our eyes met. He understood.
“All we can do is love him and give him everything we never had.” He moved to stare down at Siren. “He will make mistakes, his heart will get broken. And he will survive like we did.”
His eyes lifted to meet mine. “We experienced a lot of bad stuff Taylor and look where we are. If we managed to get here, I know he will too.”
He sounded so confident, so sure. It was difficult to hold onto the irrational fear. I nodded.
I would love him and try my best to give him everything I could.
“We have a waiting room full of people who can’t wait to you,” Sin murmured to our baby.
It reminded me of all important people in our lives that would just as important to Siren.
Connor was the first to reach for his nephew. “He is so beautiful Taylor.”
The emotion shone from my brother’s eyes which went straight my chest. I swallowed the emotion and nodded. “Beautiful,” I manage to whisper in confirmation.
My brother’s smile widened. “Chase is going to love him. I can see them both running rings around us.”
I nodded. Connor and Shannon had moved from across the country to be closer to us. I loved that I got see him more often, especially now that he had tamed down his interfering nature especially when it came to me.
It was probably a good thing I had got some practice in with Chase. He was walking and already getting into mischief.
My life had never felt so complete. As I watched Slater take Siren from Connor.
“I’ll teach you everything you need to know.” Slater gazed down at my son.
“Maybe not everything,” Sin muttered affectionately.
I was so happy watching everyone interact. Every person in that room was family even if they did not share my blood.
“He has your genes,” Slater shot back with laughter. “I might not have to teach him anything.”
Connor bent down to kiss my cheek as Jordan cooed by the baby as she stood beside Slater. “I’ll make sure you don’t go around breaking all the girls hearts.”
Shannon arrived just then. “Sorry I had to organize a baby sitter.”
“It’s good to see you,” I murmured to Connor’s wife and Slater’s sister.
“How are you doing?” she asked coming over to stand beside my brother.
“I’m fine.” The arrival of Siren had wiped the pain of labor from my mind.
“I’ll give everything a few more minutes and then we’ll give you some time to rest,” she whispered to me as she gave my hand a squeeze.
“Thanks.”
I was tired.
Sienna sent a bouquet of flowers with a small note wishing us a congratulations. She was still picking up the pieces and trying to deal with the death of her brother. I felt for her. What she had done hadn’t been easy. And if it hadn’t been for her we wouldn’t be here with our new born son.
Once everyone had a chance to hold Siren, Shannon ushered everyone out to give me time with Sin and Siren.
Siren lay asleep in the basinet as Sin crawled onto the bed and I turned so he could hold me.
“What you did…it was truly amazing.” His voice was husky with emotion.
I lay my head on his chest and breathed deeply. “I’m so happy right now.”
He kissed my cheek. “I’m not sure it gets any better than this.”
I smiled, loving how he was in awe of our baby.
It made every fear that I harbored when I had first discovered I was pregnant as nothing more than irrational.
“I know now is not the time to say this but…”
“What?” I asked softy, our eyes meeting.
“I want more.”
I frowned for second. “Babies?”
He nodded.
I laughed. “Right now my body is chiming in with a firm no but my heart…my heart feels the same.”
He smiled, that devastating one that caught me right in the chest, reminding me how much I loved him.
In the silence, I couldn’t ignore all the stuff that had led us to this point.
“You are looking very serious.”
I shrugged. “There were times I never thought we would have this but we’re here.” I breathed deeply. “I just want to stay in this moment.”
He pulled me closer. “Then we’ll stay here for as long as we can.”
Just then Siren began to wake.
“I think Siren has other ideas,” Sin murmured, moving from the bed to pick up our son.
I was not alone. I had the man I loved with all of my heart and the son I would sacrifice anything for.
We would do this together, this beautiful life we had both fought for.